Fear of Happiness: When Feeling Good Feels Unsafe

Shree

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Some people subconsciously sabotage joy, fearing that happiness won’t last or that they don’t deserve it. This can stem from past trauma or negative conditioning. Learning to embrace positive emotions without guilt is key to long-term well-being. Have you ever felt uneasy when things were going too well?
 
I think a lot of people (myself included) who experience a condition such as Post Traumatic Stress Disorder can actually find that moments of happiness can be clouded by feelings like "what if" or "I shouldn't be here". Living with these kinds of conditions is a lifelong ailment, and while I'm sure that recovery is possible, for some that can take a long time. I myself am still on the journey to recovery and find myself with these distressing feelings often, and I know that I don't deserve to have those feelings, but I still can't help feeling that way.
 
When a particular thing has happened all over again to you, and that thing is negative, you won't ever be positive about that aspect of life. And that is despite that you hold positivity in your both hands. You would feel that the former patten would just find a way to play out.
 
I live one day at a time so I try to be happy when I should becsuse this periods don't last but I try to drag them.
 
I've experienced moments where feeling genuinely happy felt... wrong. It's like a subconscious alarm goes off, telling me that this good feeling can't last, or that something bad is just around the corner. It's a strange internal conflict, wanting to embrace the joy but also feeling a deep-seated fear of it. It makes me question if I truly deserve to feel good.
 
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